It took me days to wonder whether to blog about this..
A lot of problems are spinning around me..
But I just don't know if I should say it out here.
Cos, I understand that if I really say it out, it might just make the whole thing worse. I'm saying it MIGHT.
But, I can't just keep everything inside my mind.
I can't stand that much of depression either.
Cos everything just happened in a blink of eye.
It's like way to fast.
I can't seem to accept anything.
Don't worry. It's not about any death case.
Nowadays, I've been feeling so left out...
The people who I usually mixing around with don't seem to be that close with me anymore.
Sometimes, I really wonder, have I done anything wrong?
Or was it my fault?
If yes, I apologize.
Let me know I'm wrong, let me know what I did wrong.
That's the only solution that works on me.
If you just hide everything away and try to avoid the problems,
nothing's gonna happen. I bet!
Nobody will realize that they're wrong if no one tells them.
Even if sometimes I myself feel that I'm a person who creates loads of problems.
But, some people just like treating me like I'm the person who always do the wrong things.
They always expect me to apologize without thinking..
To me,
I'm like a person who is kinda weak when it comes to friendship.
If you think this is a bull crap, I'm sorry then.
It's just how I feel.
I am not really good in managing friendship.
I can't really handle the problems and sometimes I'll just make it worse.
I always asked people for advises..
But sometimes, things just can't turn out good.
They'll just ignore or anything that goes...
Yeah, I do ignored loads of stuff that I'm facing..
But we can't ignore and avoid things like forever??
Don't you readers think so?
Well, there's also another case..
I'm a very mean person, sometimes..
Yes, I agree with that.
I'm borned with this attitude but I know I can change it of cos.
Right, I'm mean, and I try to change it, but that's not the only way.
We have to bare with each others' behaviors for no matter what.
We can't just expect only one side to do something whereas the other one just watch how things change.
That's not the way.
Friends are meant to bare with each other.
That is what are friends for.
Everyone have attitude problems & I know I'm not the only one.
She's bitchy, He's cocky.
Well, that's just fine. Everyone still get to live their lives.
If you think the person is a bastard, well, then hate him.
Don't have to force yourselves to bare with him since you don't treat him as a friend.
But from the angle of being a friend, we should try to tell each other what is the problem.
Which part of the friend you think it's not good.
To me, I think that's the way.
Sometimes, you'll just have to do something to value the friendship..
Even if you're not wrong, you can still make the first move.
Talk to you friends. You can even apologize if you want things to be okay.
It doesn't really mean that you're wrong if you apologize.
It just shows how much you appreciate the friendship.
And if you really don't feel like it anymore.
Throw it away! Kick your friends away then.
But please, not after years of knowing each other.
If you already spent time with your friend for like more than years.
You shouldn't have do such things to avoid.
It's not worth it at all!!
That's for my point of view, what's yours?
I really understand there are people who I really can't stand.
But what to do? If that person is my best friend.
He or She will always be.
We can't count all the wrong things that they did to hurt our feelings.
If your friends are getting too over and they did stuffs that you hate.
And you get mad of it.
Well, listen here, what's the point of getting mad?
It's not that you have not done anything wrong to your friends.
Can you swear it? No one else can.
We did the same mistakes.
And if we get mad at your friend and don't listen to whatever he/she said.
How would he/she feel?
Even if it's his/her wrong, SO?
We can still learn how to forget and forgive each other.
It's never too late to do that.. Better late than never.
Well, I guess I'm saying too much here.
But I'm just trying to let everything out of my mind.
I feel so much better now. Thanks readers.
You might don't like and disagree with my views.
Well. Sorry then. You can have your own views.
It's my blog, I just wanna write my feelings and thoughts.
I don't think there's anything wrong with it.
To all my friends who I really care,
I value the friendships between us.
If I've ever done wrong things, you can tell me.
I will try my best to change it and I'll hope you can bare with it.
Cos it's better when you tell me then hiding it away from me.
I'll just feel even worse.
Sorry.
Thanks. I love you people! ♥
I guess I'll stop here.
Night.
